Does it break my heart? Of course, every moment of every day, into more pieces than my heart was made of, I never thought of myself as quiet, much less silent, I never thought about things at all, everything changed, the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasn’t the world, it wasn’t the bombs and burning buildings, it was me, my thinking, the cancer of never letting go, is ignorance bliss, I don’t know, but it’s so painful to think, and tell me, what did thinking ever do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me? I think and think and think, I’ve thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it.

A thought of a Dreamer #7

You know what's one of the saddest sound in the world? Children playing. There is just something about sitting in your room with the windows open, listening to their joy and laughter. It's like there is some sort of magic going on outside that you can no longer join in on. Something you can no longer grasp. A secret club you can't It's like there is some sort of magic going on outside that you can no longer join in on. Something you can no longer grasp. A secret club you can't remember the password to. And you realize that you've grown up.

A thought of a Dreamer #6

#lasttrip

  I want to go on a road trip, just you, me, the high way and the radio. The blue sky, the back roads, and windows down. We'll talk about everything and nothing. We'll taking a lot of silly photographs, laughing, giggling, hugging, kissing. Everything. Like there's no end in this journey. We sing along with our terrible voice, you hold my hand like you'll never let me go. We'll sing our hearts out. And we'll make memories we'll never , ever forget. Just you and me.

What To Write

Most of things I write are things I'm scared to say out loud. Everything I say never comes close to what I really feel. Everything I feel can... never actually be explained. It's like, umh, you know, an endless cycle of mixed emotions I'll never know how to clarify to anyone...not even my self.

//THE ZOOC MANIA ZOOMINON

So, I had a photoshoot session with my classmates on Saturday. It was pretty fun, for real. Because  actually, I didn't make any concept or 't for this photoshoot. Of course I didn't tell my pals about that hahaha. Maybe if  people asked me what is the  concept of this photoshoot, I have no idea how to answer it, so... I'd rather kick them in the face to shut their mouth up. Just kidding of course! Enjoy!

[and yes, that ugly foot is mine]

[the talents]

[the people on that day]

I will fall for a boy who will....

I will fall for a boy who will....

• Stand out in the rain with me 
• Cook with, or for me
• Let me sing along to the radio
• Keep surprising me
• Watch movie with me on lazy days
• Remember the little things
• Start a play-fight with me with Water, Flour, Food or Pillow
• Always say whats on his mind
• Let me wear his clothes
• Shut me up with kisses
• Treat me nice, right and with respect
• Not afraid to introduce me with his family
• Love me back

Sorry for write this sappy unromantic wishes about love, I just don't have something intresting to do tonight ;)

#GirlCrush

I'm not a lesbian. And it's not a mistake to have a girl crush. So, here is a list of my "Girl-Crush". Enjoy!

 

 

 So sometimes I’m just sitting down in school after lunch, and im staring at the people passing by and sometimes i just think about noses, and feet, and eyes, and how interesting they are. like everyone has them, and everyone overlooks them, but I was just looking at how wondrous and strange they were.

 am I normal?

Your hand in mine, We walk the miles

 

 So, I went to Bandung with my boyfriend on last friday. It's really unplanned, fyi. We just talking on the phone, and suddenly he asked me to go to bandung and I said yes. So the next day, he picked me up, asked a permission to my parents to go out with me and tada... just like that. Pretty simple.

We took a lot of silly pictures along the road. Sadly I can't post the pictures because I decided to bring my toycam analog camera which use a roll film when he said he would bring his DSLR camera. I guess i'm gonna ask him to upload the photos from his camera to my Facebook (he DO NOT have facebook btw).
We visitied many places. Lembang, Kawah Putih (we went to kawah putih by angkot because the ticket is too expensive if we bring our own vehicle)," lying on the grass while enjoyed the panorama of pine trees at Bukit Kuda, some places around Dago and Riau street, small yet cute restaurant called "Nanny's Pavillon (Tips: You should visit this place if you're going to Bandung. Try their pancake!) and last destination, Star Hill (Bukit Bintang in Indonesian literally).
And we're went back to Jakarta at 1 AM. Seriously, this is one of the most amazing moment that I would never forget.