It's still 25 November. Well, it's 13.28

AND IT STILL MY BIRTHDAY HAHAHHA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! 

I'm officially 15 years young now! Yipppieeee

even though I still at home because of my typhus, I couldn't hide my happiness in my born day. so here I am, sitting in front of my laptop, share something story in my blog. share how happy I am when I got shocked and almost cry with bayu's surprise. share how happy I am when I know there are some people that care enough to me that woke up in the middle of night, send me a text or call me just to say happy birthday to me. share how happy I am that my Twitter's friend care enough to say happy birthday to me even though we're not knowing each other. It just..... make me speechless and thinking "SHIT.... this is sweet!" and there's nothing that I can say except.... "Thanks guys, for making a fantastic fifteenth-birthday to me" :DD

Love,

remember them?

Fuck. You. Tumblr

"can i feel a happiness even if it's just once in my life?"

even Google can't show the result.

I can't stop staring at my crush who sit in right corner of my class. And I still can't stop staring at him while he was talking to another girl & I can't do anything except keep staring and letting my heart broken into a pieces

Gosh. I desperately in love with Effy Stonem a.k.a Kaya Scodelario from SKINS. She's so fucking gorgeous. She remind me with Cory Kennedy, but Kaya more fresh & more cute than her haha. Okay kidding-_-

(I admire her eyes)

(look at the way she laugh.... extremely sweet!)

Ehhhh.... what is that? Ummm... that is love. What is love? Ummhhh... Love....L-O-V-E... Love is YOU, Bayu Pradana Putra :)

it was a “pause” not a complete “stop” to us. why couldn’t you understand that. why couldn’t you understand me :[

Cratyfatty is a band from Jakarta. Formed since.... uhm I'm forget but I'm pretty sure it has formed since my brother on senior high school! well umm... it was 2005.
Firstly, this band formed as a tribute to my Brother crush and they named their band just like my brother crush "Rahmawati" (it's kinda weird I know -_-"). Then after perform in many places they agreed to change their band name and here comes "Cratyfatty"!!! :DD

 

well this is the members of Cratyfatty:

JOKO - Lead Vokal
ARIE - Lead Guitar
KRISNA - Lead Guitar
ITUN - Bass
MATT - Drum (this is my brother ^^)

now their current activity is record their new song & sending their demo to a label recording. and after finished his college, my brother and his band will perform from one place to other place, more active making a new song and more active sending Cratyfatty's demo to a label recording.

Check out their song on their Myspace and catch them on their page on Facebook!!! :D 

Thankyouuu <3

$#*!%!?!!

I just pass through the mid exam. 

The scores? 

Horrible. Okay. Finish. Die -_-

Your hand in mine, we walk the miles..

Sylvia Plath

I currently interest with Sylvia Plath poetry & quotes. I've read her biography on Wikipedia. I feels so sorry about her suicide. 

Well, this is a few quotes or poetry that I favorite the most from Sylvia Plath 

“I took a deep breath and listened to the old brag of my heart: I am, I am, I am.”—Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

"Dying is an art, like everything else. I do it exceptionally well. I do it so it feels like hell. I do it so it feels real. I guess you could say I've a call" —Sylvia Plath, "Lady Lazarus", 1966 

"I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; I lift my eyes and all is born again" —Sylvia Plath

"And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt"— Sylvia Plath 

"Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are dangerously close to wanting nothing" — Sylvia Plath 

Xoxo,

 

I miss to play with "C.J"

DEMI LOVAH-TO!!!!!!!

Holiday was ended. Time to back to school. And my brain.... totally blank for study again. I still want a holiday. And guess what.... I got a bad score in a few subjects. Oh my gosh.... my fear about something bad start to haunt me again. God... I need your help. Immediately. Save me. I'm terrified.

Happy Ied For Everyone :)

It's Friday September, 10, 2010, 2.04 AM and guess what... hari ini Lebaran!
Yeah. Can't believe that? Me too. Gila gak kerasa banget 1 bulan udah gue jalanin puasa & bangun jam 3an buat sahur. Udah lebaran aje. Wow.

Okay.

Selamat Idul Fitri semuanya, mohon maaf lahir dan batin. Semoga puasa tahun ini dan segala amal ibadahnya diterima oleh Allah SWT. Amin.

Dan takbir pun masih terus berkumandang dari masjid di deket rumah gue.

Well, it's 2.07 AM. I can't denied this anymore. I need to get a rest. I need to sleep. Gila mata gue udah gak kuat. Walaupun gue juga besok ga bisa ikut solat ied sih gara-gara lagi "halangan" -____-

Once again... Happy Ied Everyone! :)

Maaf lahir & batin ^^

OMFG.... John O'callaghan burn my eyes with his body..... and of course his tattoo 

merde!

This is my parents. They've been married for 26 years.

Even though sometimes they have many things to argue... 

   

but see they could do romantic activity like this one

☃

This is me. Ugly. Bitchy -_-"

I not ready for lonely. Not yet. Stay, please :(

"...I’m miles from where you are, I lay down on the cold ground. I pray that something picks me up, and sets me down in your warm arms..."

Set the Fire to the Third Bar, Snow Patrol (feat. Martha Wainwright)

Miss them.

I WANT TO BE FREE!!!

I cannot get these words right. Baby you came into my life. You recognized me in my sadness. You took all of the darkness and gave me the light. I love you as simple as the way you do. Oh my dear... you've restore my faith in the possibilities of this.... painful world 

Keep amazing.

Love, me :)

Tutorial (Requested by my friend ^^)

1. Open the picture of you and your text 

2. Move the "girl" photo into your "text"  photo

3. Like this one. And then change the blending mode from "normal" to "screen" (look at the picture)

4. TADAAA!!! :))))))

  

I have so much going for me, but sometimes I just want to blow my brains out and be done with it all. I just feels like I can’t handle this life. I feels like I'm useless 

Huh  

(ˇ﹏ˇ)　

here they are. a few of new people that comes into my life. in my new school :)

(from left) Me.Cice. Kiki

(from left)Grace. Iren. Me. Tika. Cice

(from left) Me. Shasa

(from left) Kiki. Iren (bottom). Shasa (right)

Aya & Michelle (Upside)

we're nuts :p

I'm going to Lembang, Bandung (again) tommorrow. HHHHH-_______-so fuckin' tired. Baru aja kemarin kita selesai MOS disana, bangun jam 3 buat mandi duluan biar gak kena antrian panjang, terus subuh-subuh udah senam dan selama disana bisa-bisanya gue pake acara sakit perut disana -____- lafuck!!! But I swear, it was so fucking fun, I can't explain how funny it is when we tried to work together even though we haven't know each other well. It was really really fun, and fyi, we have a funny and handsome (i'm lying haha) coach named Susandi or we usually call him "Om susan". OMG, suddenly, I feel desperately miss pleton 4 & om susan :((((
well, I planned to packing for tommorrow and ask my friend to send me a photo of Pleton 4 with Om susan too. Sweet.... hahaha wish me luck!!! :)

I like making a list. HaHa okay, so this is a list of pictures I like.  Just enjoy^^

ps: as usual, I get all of this pictures from my Tumblr, other Tumblr, random web & flickr :)