Does it break my heart? Of course, every moment of every day, into more pieces than my heart was made of, I never thought of myself as quiet, much less silent, I never thought about things at all, everything changed, the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasn’t the world, it wasn’t the bombs and burning buildings, it was me, my thinking, the cancer of never letting go, is ignorance bliss, I don’t know, but it’s so painful to think, and tell me, what did thinking ever do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me? I think and think and think, I’ve thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it.
September 21, 2011
You know what's one of the saddest sound in the world? Children playing. There is just something about sitting in your room with the windows open, listening to their joy and laughter. It's like there is some sort of magic going on outside that you can no longer join in on. Something you can no longer grasp. A secret club you can't It's like there is some sort of magic going on outside that you can no longer join in on. Something you can no longer grasp. A secret club you can't remember the password to. And you realize that you've grown up.
September 19, 2011
September 18, 2011
Most of things I write are things I'm scared to say out loud. Everything I say never comes close to what I really feel. Everything I feel can... never actually be explained. It's like, umh, you know, an endless cycle of mixed emotions I'll never know how to clarify to anyone...not even my self.
September 15, 2011
So, I had a photoshoot session with my classmates on Saturday. It was pretty fun, for real. Because actually, I didn't make any concept or 't for this photoshoot. Of course I didn't tell my pals about that hahaha. Maybe if people asked me what is the concept of this photoshoot, I have no idea how to answer it, so... I'd rather kick them in the face to shut their mouth up. Just kidding of course! Enjoy!
[and yes, that ugly foot is mine]
[the people on that day]
September 13, 2011
- Stand out in the rain with me
- Cook with, or for me
- Let me sing along to the radio
- Keep surprising me
- Watch movie with me on lazy days
- Remember the little things
- Start a play-fight with me with Water, Flour, Food or Pillow
- Always say whats on his mind
- Let me wear his clothes
- Shut me up with kisses
- Treat me nice, right and with respect
- Not afraid to introduce me with his family
- Love me back
September 8, 2011
I'm not a lesbian. And it's not a mistake to have a girl crush. So, here is a list of my "Girl-Crush". Enjoy!
So sometimes I’m just sitting down in school after lunch, and im staring at the people passing by and sometimes i just think about noses, and feet, and eyes, and how interesting they are. like everyone has them, and everyone overlooks them, but I was just looking at how wondrous and strange they were.
am I normal?
September 6, 2011
We took a lot of silly pictures along the road. Sadly I can't post the pictures because I decided to bring my toycam analog camera which use a roll film when he said he would bring his DSLR camera. I guess i'm gonna ask him to upload the photos from his camera to my Facebook (he DO NOT have facebook btw).
We visitied many places. Lembang, Kawah Putih (we went to kawah putih by angkot because the ticket is too expensive if we bring our own vehicle)," lying on the grass while enjoyed the panorama of pine trees at Bukit Kuda, some places around Dago and Riau street, small yet cute restaurant called "Nanny's Pavillon (Tips: You should visit this place if you're going to Bandung. Try their pancake!) and last destination, Star Hill (Bukit Bintang in Indonesian literally).
And we're went back to Jakarta at 1 AM. Seriously, this is one of the most amazing moment that I would never forget.