April 23, 2012

A Thought Of A Dreamer #14


I’m not anywhere close to being who I want to be. Some days that encourages me to keep trying to better myself, but other days it’s just so fucking discouraging. It sucks. And I don't want to be like this. I'm looking for some motivation help to keep me going. No, I'm not just look for it, I need it.

April 20, 2012


Banyak sekali hal yang saya tidak mengerti.

Salah satu hal yang saya tidak mengerti adalah bahwa saya memiliki hati yang sangat lembek jika mengaitkan sesuatu yang berhubungan dengan binatang, yang entah ini merupakan sebuah kekurangan atau kelebihan. 

Tapi di sisi yang berseberangan, banyak sekali manusia-manusia yang moral dan perilaku kejinya sangat luar biasa biadab dan terkutuk, yang dengan mudah nya melakukan hal-hal yang sangat barbar terhadap binatang.

Banyak sekali artikel-artikel tentang pembantaian hewan-hewan yang bertebaran di internet dan sangat memilukan hati.

Kerap kali saya tiba-tiba menangis sambil membaca berita tentang pembantaian hewan-hewan, yang benar-benar tidak berdaya dikulitin hidup-hidup, gak kasih makan dengan layak, tinggal atau dikurung di ruangan yang tidak sepantasnya untuk ditinggali makhluk hidup dan bahkan dijadikan budak seks. 

Lalu pikiran saya melayang, kalau sudah begini, kemana para petinggi negeri ini dan asas-asas hukum yang seharusnya bisa melindungi hak-hak hewan-hewan tersebut?

Atau asas-asas hukum dibuat memang untuk dilanggar dan dibeli? Atau lebih ekstrim, asas-asas hukum tersebut hanya ilusi yang notabene berarti tidak ada

Tuhan menciptakan manusia dan makhluk-makhluk hidup lainnya seperti binatang, untuk hidup bersama-sama dalam sebuah harmoni keselarasan bersama-sama diatas bumi. 

Tuhan menciptakan binatang untuk kalian olah dengan sebaik-baiknya dan sebijak-bijaknya untuk memenuhi kebutuhan hidup manusia, dan binatang sadar dan relaakan kodratnya yang seperti itu. 

Bukan untuk dibantai secara masal untuk diambil salah satu bagian tubuhnya, dikuliti untuk dijadikan fashion atau dipelihara namun hanya untuk prestise sosial.

Manusia-manusia, 

Terkadang perilaku kalian lebih menjijikan untuk disebut makhluk ciptaan Tuhan yang paling sempurna yang berdiri di muka bumi....

a little escape from the routines would be nice.
 just a little, my love.

April 13, 2012

Eeni Meeni Miini Moh!

I had a new kitten.
 I picked him from the ditch near my grandma house, and he was smaller from those pictures above that taken 2 months later.
I gave him a name, Boni
Don't ask why, because I don't have any answer why I gave him "Boni" as his name -_-

2/9/11

Can we go back to 2 September 2011?
And repeat all of those stuff that we've done?
Just want to remind myself once again  that I had felt that "feeling" even though it's just once.
That kind of feeling people write Novels about.
That kind of feeling when I was really really happy. That kind of joy feeling that I thought it was too wonderful to be true, that I was thinking it must be a part of my dreams or something, that would never happen in reality.
But I'm glad, It was real.
You were there. We were there. Once.
Feel tremendously happy so we were begging for that trip to stay lasts and would never end.
Begging and wishing for that trip that could be a new beginning, to have a faith that long distance relationship can work out, to have a new perspective on each other.
But time flies so fast, My Dear.
 It all memories now.
Memories are wonderful things, if you don't have to deal with the past. . .

April 9, 2012


April 7, 2012


"This is the sadness of the sea -
waves like words, all broken -
a sameness of lifting and falling mood." written by William Carlos Williams, The Descent of Winter, from Collected Poems 1921-1931

April 2, 2012

"It's love... it's not Santa Claus"

"I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you." —John Green
What a quote. I just found this quote on a web and instantly enamored with it words. It's like.... a wind that blow softly in the gap between the depression caused by Math exam today that totally fucked up and the-love is in the air-mood that caused by a little text in the morning from this guy that said goodluck on my math exam and happy anniversary for us. Thankyou, my Man, You really made my day.



PS: If you read this post, I just want to say that I tremendously love with mixtape that you made. What an amazing music taste, me likey <3